Hey. I'm depressed, man. Sigh. I've been waiting so long for today to come but it just came crashing down on me. Sigh.

So y'know today's Sunday. I went for mass, went into Church 2 mins late, but mass havent start yet. I was looking around for him, still didnt see him. Then mass started, blahblah. Then went for communion. I saw Jay. Hahah. But I dont think he saw me. Then still didnt see him, the one I was looking for. I saw Issac, Tristan and Nigel, but didnt see him...

Then I almost totally lost hope. I prayed to see him. BUT my prayers weren't answered today :(

After mass, went downstairs. I was clinging onto that last shard of light in my heart, that I would still get a chance to see him.

But I didnt.

So I gave up completely.

So today was really depressing. I waited a long time for this day to come, okay.

Love♥
Zeal.

P.S. I regret walking away last week. He was walking up to me, he wanted to talk to me. I saw him coming towards me, but I purposely walked away. FUCK IT... :(