Hello :)

I'm gonna change back to my old, messier blogging style to prevent any... What's that word I'm looking for. Uhh... nevermind. I'm just changing it back to my old blogging style, okayy (: So. I hated today. First, I got a message from a close friend that made me feel so guilty. Second, I didnt see him today. Third, uh, this one's private. Fourth, I didnt do any homework today. Fifth, I got scolded. Sixth, I realised how little time we have left till school re-opens. Seventh, I had way too many thoughts of suicide today x.x But I'll never kill myself. Like, what's the point? I mean if you do kill yourself, you'll go to hell, where you'll spend the rest of FOREVER there. So it's really not worth it. I'd rather spend 100 years of hell on Earth then forever (only God knows how long that is) of hell in hell itself. And also, who'd wanna die such a stupid, pathetic, loser life? Gosh. Retards, that's who. So dishonorable. Pfft. Rant over. Where was I... Oh. Okay. So eighth, uh, this one's also private. Oh yea, I got scolded AGAIN. So that's nine. Tenth, I had a suckish lunch. No, seriously. I HATED it. Eleventh, uhm, it's complicated. Okay, I cant think anymore. So eleven things. BAD things. Dammit lah :( I hope tomorrow'll be better. I hope Drama makes my week. I'm so happy that we'll be watching the Duck and Dive play this Friday. Cant wait :) At least all my Drama friends are going! I love them truckloads♥ Hmm... Damn, I cant read properly. This is seriously messy, man. But I dont wanna get into anymore fights or whatever, so, I'll change it back. The things I do. Whatever. I just lost my mood. Thinking of good things help me awhile but then, it's gone. It just disappears. Vanishes. It's like catching dust. You think you got it, and you feel satisfied, but you open your hands and it aint there. And you feel disappointed and stuff. Well that's just me. I'm not saying in general, I'm saying it personally. I think I'll end this post. I'm gonna think.

Goodbye.

Love♥
Zeal.