Hello.

I don't wanna blog about school because I don't think you'll be interested in it.

Sooo, I shall blog about...

(I'm actually on Google now.

I just typed : What to blog about when you have nothing to blog about. HAHA)

Well, none of the things seem interesting, so, here's a poem :)

(Don't blame me. I have nothing to do. Besides homework, that is.

And I'm sorry my poems are gross, so you can stop reading now :] )

The Haunting.

When you left me,
There was nothing left.
My soul was devoid of feeling.
My heart, felt only pain.

Through my eyes, I couldn't see.
Everything was dark.
Nothing made sense,
And everything was just a blur.

That is why time passed so fast,
Because nothing will be remembered.
The days trickled together,
Time didn't mean anything to me.

Each passing heartbeat,
Each flitting second,
I could only think the same things.
In my head was you.

And then the memories began to fade,
Crucified.
And the pain was resurrected,
Brought back to haunt.

The days suddenly seemed endless,
And a second was an eternity.
The shadows came back,
And everything was just darker.

There was a total absence of light,
It was a total eclipse.
Everything, everywhere,
Nothing could be seen.

Only one thing I knew for sure,
Only one thing was in the faraway light.
I only knew for certain that I love you,
And I always will.

That was what I thought to myself,
What I thought when I cried myself to sleep.
What I thought when my voice broke with sorrow,
When the empty, aching feeling grew and grew.

It grew until it devoured me.
I couldn't conquer it.
Because this love, it makes me weak.
And I can't fight this love.

And why does fate have to be so cruel?
She always makes me see you.
I know that once, I wished for that to happen.
Has it been only three months?

Now I want nothing but to forget you.
Because you haunt me day and night,
Awake and dreaming.
I hate you but I can't stop loving you.

Because even though you scarred my heart,
Tore my wings apart,
And broke my soul,
I know you're an angel.

You're the angel that watches over me,
But maybe I don't want you to look after me.
Nobody else sees it.
Why? You'll never give me answers.

Love♥
Zeal.



You were one in a million and I was just one of a million.

Hello.

Sorry I haven't been blogging.

There was nothing much to say :\

Well, at least my life has become a bit more interesting.

But once school reopens, it'll go back to the usual mundaneness and boredom.

Mundaneness is a real word, you know?

It looks weird.

Anyway, uh, nothing much to say.

So, random things.

About Christine

She's sleeping over today.

I'm waiting for her to come but I haven't even bathed yet.

Haha.

We're gonna watch GossipGirl / 90210 .

But on Monday we have to do the e-learning thing :(

Oh well.

Better than doing it alone, I guess.

About Shernise

Thanks for the advice :)

I clarified with the person.

She wasn't talking about me,

But she doesn't like me much because of another person.

I took that other person's side, so.

Anyway, hm, thanks for all your tags :)

Okay, nothing much to say.

About Pohyi

I actually have nothing to say to you, so

HI!

And thanks for all the tags as well ♥

Back to the post.

Nothing much happened on the days I didn't blog.

Oh, except for yesterday.

Okay, so yesterday,

I went to Bugis, City Link, Suntec, Raffles City and Orchard Road.

By foot.

Yes, we actually walked to all those places.

But my legs aren't aching anymore.

I'm lazy to blog about what we did, so.

Okay, I think I really should go bathe.

I need to blog on Chrishernal after this, too.

So bye.

Love♥
Zeal.



Sometimes, your close friends are really enemies in disguise.

Dear Stranger,

Who are you?

I need to see you,

I need to feel you.

But you are no one,

We aren't star-crossed.

Maybe we never will be.

I hope the day comes, though.

I look forward to it.

I want to know more about you.

And the conversation,

It didn't make sense.

Please tell me what it means.

I think we're connected.

I think you know it.

That's the only thing I can make of our conversation.

So please explain it some more.

You make me feel tingly,

You make me feel like laughing.

I'm smiling as I write this.

I hope you're reading it,

But maybe I'm just insane.

I was choking in the smoke.

It suffocated me.

Then you came and it cleared away,

Now I can breathe again.

The fire is tame again.

Like it had been before the other person came.

Now I hope that person doesn't return.

And I hope you aren't going to make me suffer like the other one did.

Thanks.

I look forward to seeing you again.

Love♥
Zeal.



What love is this?

Hello.

I'm gonna do the "Things about me" thing :)

Okay, here goes.

10 things in my wishlist

1. A new house with my own room.

2. A keeshond (Shadowww) and a Russian Blue.

3. A Diana F+ cam.

4. TO WATCH ECLIPSE!!!

5. Beastly.

6. Read Spirit Bound.

7. CDs.

8. Chrishernal picnic :)

9. Go to US and buy clothes.

10. Converse shoes!

5 things I can't live without

1. Friends and family.

2. Music.

3. Books.

4. Love.

5. God.

(This is not counting food, water, air, shelter, etc.)

I would have included chocolate.

5 things I do when I'm bored

1. Read.

2. Listen to music.

3. Write.

4. Internet (Facebook, Twitter, Blog, Tumblr, etc.)

5. Play with Mushi :)

Okay, that's all.

I have to go eat breakfast.

Bye.

Love♥
Zeal.



I was told to stay away. Those two words I can't obey.

Hello.

I have nothing much to blog about.

I can't remember anything.

I know that yesterday Christine was at my house.

We watched 90210 then went to TM to watch Karate Kid.

It was about 3hours long.

It was okay.

Then took wrong bus back and blah blah blah.

Reached my house.

Wanted to stay over at her house but I had a freaking fever.

Which is worse now, bytheway.

So she went home.

And I just woke up, so nothing happened.

Nothing's probably gonna happen today.

It's study day.

I might be going to my grand-uncle's house later, though.

To see his dog :)

I love her so much.

Okay, so bye.

Love♥
Zeal.



Wait, blood on the tracks. Scream through the h-h-haze,

Hello.

Just got back from Shernise's house and e!hub.

Today's supposed to be the picnic but it was raining D:

So we just chilled at e!hub.

Um, Christine, Shernise, Pohyi, Sherlyn and I went.

Okay, from the beginning, uh.

Xtine, Shernise, Pohyi and I went to Bedok inter at first.

We went to the library, returned and borrowed books.

Then went back to my house to take money.

Then cabbed to e!hub, met Sherlyn at NTUC.

Bought sushehhhh! :)

Salmon and crabstick.

Then went to eat outside the cinema.

Wanted to watch a movie but all the shows started late, @ like 4 plus.

So decided to just slack outside the cinema.

Haha. Prank-called people and cam-whored.

Funnn.

Then went to take neoprints! :)

Then Sherlyn and Pohyi went back and Xtine and I went to Shernise's house.

Went to 7-11, bought kitkat! Heehee.

Uh, then went to her house outside the gym.

Slacked, talked, etc.

Then went back.

Xtine's staying over today :)

So we're here now.

At my house.

Yeah.

She's painting her nails.

I'm typing this.

I'm hungry.

But I don't wanna eat.

We're gonna watch MTV movie awards during dinner.

Then have a GG marathon again :)

Haha, reminded me of something, but I shall not post it here.

Just in case ;)

Byeee.

Oh, yeah.

Lucid dreaming last night was a fail.

I'm gonna try it again tonight :)

Okay bye!

Love♥
Zeal.



Look out at the setting sun,

Dear Dreams,

I finally own you :)

Thanks for surrendering.

Love♥
Zeal.



Victorious,

Hello.

I'm too lazy to blog about Saturday and Sunday.

About Saturday, you can read about it on Chrishernal :)

It was funnn!

Sunday was boringgg!

It kinda sucked.

Sigh.

It would've been much better if I spent it at Xtine's house ):

Oh, I stayed over at Xtine's on Saturday.

Didn't do much, but it was better than at home :P

Had the same dream, even at her house.

OHHH!

Speaking of dreams,

Heehee :)

I've learned how to control my dreams.

It's called lucid dreaming, it's really cool.

Lucid dreaming is like, you know you're dreaming. And you can change whatever you want in the dream.

You can make anything happen in your dream.

But there are like different levels of lucid dreaming.

Mine was probably the first stage.

Haha.

I've been interested in lucid dreaming for years but I never had the guts to try it,

Because I read that it was not good (in terms of God).

But I really couldn't STAND my dreams anymore.

So I decided to try lucid dreaming.

I didn't think I'd actually be able to do it, though.

Since it usually takes weeks or months or years to work.

So I'm glad mine worked on the first day.

Which was last night.

I had an awesome dream.

I love it.

I love lucid dreaming, I can't wait to do it again.

I can finally sleep in peace.

Oh, and today, I found out it isn't true, the God thing.

Because people can unintentionally lucid dream.

Okay, that's all :)

Oh, and I don't know why some people consider "bitches" a vulgar word.

I think they don't know that it can mean "girls" as well.

Haha, oh well.

Bye bitches ;)

Love♥
Zeal.



And I'm like, "Hot damn."

Hello.

Thank God for music :)

Never fails to make me feel better, I swear.

Oh, new thing.

"Swear" to me doesn't mean much to me anymore,

Unless it's the real kind of swearing which I probably never will do.

So, now, my serious promise (if you know what I mean) is "swomise" :)

Haha, okay.

Bye.

Love♥
Zeal.



I loveee her!

She's so pretty and I love her singing voice.

I've become a wild thing, yeah uh-huh, so what?

And again I find myself wishing to die.

Love♥
Zeal.



Life is hard.

Hello.

I'm sorry for blogging so much but I seriously have nothing to do D:

I read my previous posts, like the very first few posts, and DAMN.

I was so lame last time!

Seriously, I'm like "WTF, I wrote that? Eew."

I was so damn lame, omg.

I mean, I'm still lame now, but last time was...

Eew.

Haha. I can't stand it.

I feel like deleting those posts,

But I shan't.

Just in case I wanna read them again in the future.

Heehee.

I shall write random things about myself :)

---

20 random things about myself

1. I love to write. Both stories and poems, but I can't stand writing non-fiction.

2. I don't trust 95% of my friends.

3. I prefer bad boys to nice harmless ones. I don't know.

4. I always fall for gay (or gay-like) guys o.o

5. I lovelovelove punk rock.

6. I am a very right-brained person. So I don't know why I wanna become a vet, but I do.

7. I really want to learn to play the guitar.

8. I need to exercise! I.Am.Fat. Don't deny it!

9. My sense is hearing, so that's probably why I'm always hearing the marbles at night when no one else does.

10. I have a ton of daydreams that I don't even remember.

11. When I appear to be thinking of nothing, I'm actually singing a song in my head. I get lost in music A LOT.

12. My favorite time of day is twilight. Not because of the book/movie.

13. I absolutely love rainy days.

14. I prefer night to day.

15. I was born on the cusp of Aries and Pisces. Aries and Pisces are very different, so that's probably why I have that mirror-personality thing. It sucks.

16. I wish I was a Pisces! ): I'm so not like an Aries at all. Besides the temper thing :P But with my friends, I don't usually show it, so I can control it.

17. I think about a LOT of stuff. A lot a lot a lot. So much that I need to write everything down, and that is what my Diary is for.

18. I don't write about my day, or which guy is hot or my crush or whatever in my Diary. I write poems, secrets, wishes, desires (both good and dark ones), thoughts, theories, a load of stuff.

19. My favourite show is Gossip Girl.

20. I want to watch 90210, One Tree Hill and finish watching Glee and Vampire Diaries.

---

15 pet peeves of mine.

1. Smoking.

2. Babies who cry in Church. Even though I don't really pay attention, it's still really annoying because there's this peace I feel in Church and these babies just have to ruin it for me. Even if it's not their fault. Their parents should just bring them outside or something.

3. Children who aren't well-behaved (Running around, screaming and all in a public place. Especially restaurants!)

4. PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY KNOW ME.

5. Pimples!

6. Abortions.

7. Songs where people rap throughout the whole thing and it doesn't even make sense. I mean, Eminem's lyrics are really really touching, so I love it even though it's rap but some of them just rap about crap.

8. Justin Bieber! HAHA, kidding. He's okay, but I hate it when his fans get all over-the-top-fan-girly about him.

9. When people litter, especially when there is a dustbin right there!

10. When people think they can lie really well when everyone else knows she's lying!

11. People who say something bad about someone, but that person herself does it too! Ugh.

12. Ahlians, Ahbengs, Mats, Minahs, etc.

13. Narrow-minded people.

14. When people talk loudly during movies.

15. When people laugh at something that isn't funny and everyone knows it. Unless it's a guy that someone likes, I can understand ;)

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My top 10 favourite song lyrics.

1. Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin? - Hero/Heroine ; Boys Like Girls.

2. I can kiss away the pain. - Hero ; Enrique Iglesias.

3. I dream in darkness, I sleep to die. Erase the silence, erase my life. Our burning ashes blacken the day. A world of nothingness, blow me away. - Sweet Sacrifice ; Evanescence.

4. Keep breathing my angel, if you go down I go with you. May I say I loved you more? - One Man Drinking Games ; Mayday Parade.

5. THE WHOLE DAMN SONG OF "I SWEAR THIS TIME I MEAN IT" BY MAYDAY PARADE. But the sweetest lyrics from there are : So I'll sing a melody and hope to God she's listening, sleeping softly while I sing.

6. Love of mine some day you will die, but I'll be close behind. I'll follow you into the dark. - Into The Dark ; Death Cab For Cutie.

7. Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. Do you know you're unlike any other? You'll always be my thunder, and I said your eyes are the brightest of all the colors, I don't wanna ever love another. You'll always be my thunder. - Thunder ; Boys Like Girls.

8. I will never let you fall, I'll stand up with you forever. I'll be there for you through it all even if saving you sends me to heaven. - Your Guardian Angel ; Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

9. I was born to tell you I love you. - Your Call ; Secondhand Serenade.

10. These wounds won't seem to heal. This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase. When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears. - My Immortal ; Evanescence.

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I actually have a ton more, but that's my top 10 :)

What else about myself...

Okay, got one.

10 qualities in a guy.

1. Sensitive ; not pushy - He respects my decisions and feelings, and won't push me to do what I don't want to.

2. Confident about himself, but not over-confident - a leeeetle bit egoistic IN A JOKING WAY ;) Meaning he laughs it off after "complimenting" himself. I like it when guys do that. It's funny. Haha.

3. Honest - Just be himself, no lies, no cheating.

4. Romantic? Sweet :) - Gives me surprise hugs. Especially from behind! Heehee♥

5. NOT HOT TEMPERED - Losing his temper once in a while is fine, but not all the time!

6. Just a bit flirty - But not with other girls, obviously.

7. Bad yet nice, if that makes any sense.

8. If he can play the guitar, that's a big turn-on. Break dancing and singing too :)

9. He must NOT smoke. Very very very important! If he used to smoke, then fine. As long as he stops/stopped.

10. Must love me as much as I love him. Or more ;)

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5 qualities I don't care about in a guy.

1. I don't care if he's younger than me, but only 1 year younger at max.

2. I don't care if he's shorter than me, but it's definitely a turn off and he can't be too short.

3. I don't care if he's stupid, but he must have common sense.

4. I don't care if he's rich or poor.

5. I don't care if he dislikes animals, as long as he doesn't harm them.

---

Okay, I shall go now :)

Happy reading!

Bye.

Love♥
Zeal.



Queen of wishful thinking.

"Oh Florida, please be still tonight
Don't disturb this love of mine
Look how she's so serene
You've gotta help me out

And count the stars to form in lines
And find the words we'll sing in time
I want to keep her dreaming
It's my one wish, I won't forget this

I'm outdated, overrated
Morning seems so far way

So I'll sing a melody
And hope to God she's listening
Sleeping softly while I sing
And I'll be your memories
Your lullaby for all the times
Hoping that my voice could get it right

If luck is on my side tonight
My clumsy tongue will make it right
And wrists that touch
It isn't much, but it's enough
To form imaginary lines
Forget your scars, we'll forget mine
The hours change so fast
Oh God, please make this last

'Cause I'm outdated, overrated
Morning seems so far way

So I'll sing a melody
And hope to God she's listening
Sleeping softly while I sing
And I'll be your memories
Your lullaby for all the times
Hoping that my voice could get it right
Could get it right

You could crush me
Please don't crush me
'Cause baby I'm a dreamer for sure
And I won't let you down
I swear this time I mean it

And I'll sing a melody
And hope to God she's listening
Sleeping softly while I sing
And I'll be your memories
Your lullaby for all the times
Hoping that my voice could get it right"

- I Swear This Time I Mean It ; Mayday Parade.

The sweetest fucking song I have ever heard.

Love♥
Zeal.



A sweet familiar melody.

Hello.

Today hasn't started yet, too.

But I'm dead bored.

I love Gossip Girl so much!

I can't believe I thought it was a dumb show 3 years ago.

Dayum.

Oh well, I was just a little kid then, right? ;)

Sigh. A lot really has changed.

I prefer things now.

I don't know why people prefer being little kids.

Or why people don't wanna grow up.

I wanna stay at sixteen, or eighteen.

I don't want to grow older than that.

Oh well. I should go back to singing songs.

Haha.

Mayday Parade is my new favourite band, even though I've known them for forever.

It's only now that I looked at the lyrics,

And they're really nice.

I like herbrighskies and deadbyapril too.

Oh, Bullet for my Valentine is quite okay.

And BFMV's songs make me think a lot.

Especially that song.

What's it calleddd...

Tears Don't Fall.

Damn, I took three minutes to think of what it was called.

Haha.

Oh, and my GG favourite character is Chuck.

But I heard he died!

I was like "OMFG!"

Haha, when I typed that, I remembered how Blair said it when she caught Nate and Katherine.

So funnyyy.

Okayokay, bye!

Love♥
Zeal.



Coz everything you said to me was just a lie until you left.

Dear Dreams,

I only have one thing to say to you.

YOU'RE A BITCH.

That's all.

Love♥
Zeal.

P.S. You suck! ):



I just want something new.

Hello.

Quick post (:

So didn't have a movie marathon yesterday.

Ended up having a Gossip Girl marathon!

Haha.

Gossip Girl is the awesomestshoweverlikeseriouslybitches.

I haven't been watching Glee :(

I wanna watch 90210 too!

Oh, and yesterday, when Xtine came and we went to buy pizza,

It was raining and I was using a white shirt and...

You know.

But that's not it.

The thing is that on our way to Pizza Hut, we rescued some kittens!

Theywerefuckingcute.

Long story. Quick post. So.

So today, stayed home all day.

Watched movies and sorry Xtine, I watched GG too.

Couldn't help it.

Heehee.

I nearly got a heart attack when-

I shall not spoil it for you guys ;)

Okay, so tomorrow,

I'm gonna go to the airport to fetch my dad.

Then I have this family thing.

Ugh, I wanna go to the gym with Shernise.

Some other time, ok babe? Sorry :(

Okay, so bye!

Love♥
Zeal.



That's all I'm asking for.

Dear Dreams,

I told you to give me new dreams!

And yet, you gave me the same old one.

I'm getting bored with it, Dreams.

Where is your imagination?!

HAHA. I'm sorry I'm being harsh with you.

It's just that you are seriously driving me i.s.a.n.e.!

So puhleaseeeeeee gimme a new dream tonight?

Preeeedyyy pleaseee? :)

I hope you do.

I really hope you do.

I own you!

I'm supposed to control you!

But maybe you are not supposed to be controlled.

Idontknow, but I do know that I don't think about him anymore.

So why are you still making him appear in my dreams?!

ARGH. Change it!

P.L.E.A.S.E.

I. Am. Begging. You.

Thanks. (If you do. If not...!)

Bye.

Love♥
Zeal.



Dreams are only thoughts you didn't have time to think about during the day.

Whoever said that was so wrong.^

Hello.

My day hasn't really started yet.

But I saw this, which I found so damn true.

Here it is :

Guys drink to forget about the girls, girls drink to think back about the guy.

When guys are in love, they become poor, when girls are in love, they become beautiful.

Guys can forget, but can’t forgive, girls can forgive, but can’t forget.

Guys break up when they feel love from another girl, girls break up when they feel separation.

Guys feel curiosity towards all girls, girls feel curiosity towards guys that are interested in them.

When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl, when girls are heartbroken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy.

But finally, guys wish to be her first love, while girls wish to be his last.

---

It's so true.

Here's another thing:

Boy : "She's hot."

Girl : "She's a bitch."

...

Girl : "He's hot."

Boy : "He's gay."

---

HAHA.

Hot guys are jerks.

Nice guys are ugly.

Hot nice guys are gay.

It's sad, really.

Heehee.

Okay, I'll blog again laaadddeeerrr babes.

Bye.

Love♥
Zeal.



I don't have it anymore.

Now that I've gotten over you, I don't know what to think about anymore.

Dear Dreams,

Can you pleaseee stop making me dream the same dream over and over again?

I've gotten over him.

Why do you still make him appear in my head?

I don't think about him anymore.

Every time I wake up in the morning, I think,

"Another night, another dream wasted on you."

It's frustrating.

Especially since I can ALWAYS remember it.

And it always ends the same way.

The same, horrible way.

It's driving me crazy.

Let me dream new dreams.

And NOT about him.

PLEASE.

I own you, it's not the other way 'round.

REMEMBER THAT!

Love♥
Zeal.



Get out of my head.

In those eyes,

Love, dead love,
Only that cold love...
Vicious and hissing,
Eating her alive,
Drowning her.

Young naive heart,
Only fourteen years.
Unrequited love,

It's the cause of her death.

To have your love thrown away,
Rotting.
Unanswered.
She suffered,
Too much for her young heart.
Each time she reminisces,
Dreams,

Yearns...
Outside she fakes her smiles,
Until her cheeks ache.

But under the pretense, she cries.
Until she bleeds,
Till there's a hole in her heart.

Yet no one notices.
Or cares.
Ultimately, she's dying alone.

Love made her this way.
Everyone else doesn't suffer the way she does.
Fair or not,
To her it's the same.

Maybe it's because she doesn't deserve him.
Especially since he looks like an angel.

Terrifying good looks,
Other-worldly charm.

Despair of hers rings out clearly,
I don't understand... but her words are gone,
Eaten by the wind.

---

See if you can figure out this poem (:

Sorry, I had to get it out of me.

It's been stuck in my head all day!

Let me know if you figure it out :)

Bye.

Love♥
Zeal.



Make a wish, watch it blow away. Fading... into nothing.

Hello.

Sorry for not blogging.

I had nothing to write about.

Oh, I have one thing.

Now that I've gotten over the thing I'm not supposed to talk about,

I can now talk about it.

Because now I wouldn't mention it so much.

So if he really does come back,

I'll just talk about when meeting him in school.

Vaguely.

Okay? :)

I don't think that will piss anyone off,

Except maybe MAJOR EL-haters...

Hmm.

Yeah, I doubt anyone hates him THAT much.

So, yeah :)

Okay.

So I'll blog about yesterday and today and tomorrow.

Uh, yesterday didn't do much.

I just stayed home the whole day reading.

Then went to feed the cats opposite school.

Went to 7-11.

And that mat guy?

I'm not sure if it was him because his hair was very different.

But I have absolutely no idea, seriously.

And whoever said he was my lover,

I think it was Christine (haha) ,

If that was really him,

He was with a girl.

Hahaha.

Bought M&M's! :)

Wanted to buy kitkat but I wasn't that hungry.

Oh, do you know that when you eat a green M&M,

You're supposed to make a wish? ;)

Now the green ones are my favourite.

So didn't do anything else yesterday.

OH. Bytheway,

On Sunday, I went to suntec.

And I saw a certain someone there.

*Ahem*, Sherniseee ;)

Haha. Okay, so today.

Wanted to go ice skating with Dezzy, Div, Mandah and Shern,

But already made plans with Xtine to have a GG season 2 marathon.

She came at 12-ish.

Watched all the way till 6.

And only managed to watch 6 (or was it 8?) episodes.

Even though we ate in the room and didn't waste and time.

Haha.

Okayyy.

So tomorrow,

I'm gonna have a movie marathon (:

People invited : Xtine, Shernise, Syafiqah, Amanda, Germaine, Pohyi, Natalie and Sherlyn.

Yup, that's all I have to say (:

Okay, bye!

Love♥
Zeal.



Sorry babe, not anymore ;)

I wish I could forget.

200th post!

Hello.

Okay, updating blog now, Xtine (:

I'll blog about today.

Because a lot of stuff happened.

First, went for math tutorial.

It ended at 10.30.

Then went to White Sands with Shernise.

But on the bus, there was this freaking pervert that did...

SOMETHING.

SOMETHING GROSS TO US!

Man! :(

It's so effing disgusting.

And I can't get the image outta my head!

I could just now, because of something else, but.

Now that I'm talking about it, EEW.

So Shernise and I got grossed out and we think that the guy knew that we knew what he did.

So he alighted.

At Xtine's stop.

So Crissie, beware of him!

I'll tell you in school if Shernise hasn't told you yet :)

So then we reached White Sands.

Went to Macs to eat.

Got some mat experience again >:(

Seriously, what's wrong with mats?!

So annoying.

Then Poh Yi came.

As usual, she had her ice-creammm.

Haha.

Then late already, so we left.

Went back to school.

Then met Kit Wai and Jolene at the BBTS.

Then after they ate, walked back to school.

Saw Jerome again.

He was using the SAME shirt!

HAHAHA.

Then went to the PA room.

Went to change,

Then while waiting we played cards again :)

Then Ms Tan came in.

Told us that we had no instructor so Drama was damn slacky.

But it was still fun.

Then went to do inventory.

There were cockroach eggs.

So gross.

Luckily I didn't see them.

Haha.

Thennn, Drama ended.

Stayed back in school till like 6.45 for a certain reason.

And you know what!

There were like thousands of bees all over the place!

IT WAS SO SCARY OKAY.

They were all buzzing around and dying on the floor and in the sky and everything.

UGHHH.

Today was such a weird day.

Okay, bye.

Love♥
Zeal.



You kept your word.

Hello.

Sooo, my auditions yesterday were (Y).

No screw ups!

Oh, and now, I can't stand being around my drama instructor, but I want to so badly.

Uh, I can't tell you why.

Actually, I don't think it really makes a difference if I do or not,

Because,

AH shit, I can't tell you either.

It's the thing I'm not supposed to post about anymore :)

Anyway, go read :

chrishernal.bs.com

Must, okay! :)

Yesterday, had drama.

Then went to Xtine's house for dinner.

Watched 2 movies.

Final Destination 4 and Memoirs of a Geisha.

Reached home at 10.

But I was so awake.

Couldn't sleep.

Sadly, my sister had school the next day (today),

So I couldn't do anything.

I remember 3 of the dreams I had yesterday.

But I can't tell you any of them.

Because they all have to do with the thing I can't talk about.

Hm, what else can I typeee.

Okay, I can't think of anything.

I shall go watch Gossip Girl now :)

Finishing season 1 already! :(

Oh well.

Thank God it's a long series.

Okay, bye.

(Bytheway, my pictures and quotes might still be about the thing I'm not supposed to post about.

(Because if not, I won't know what other pictures to put.)

Love♥
Zeal.



I'm still here, screaming how I'm so in love with you.

Hello.

I'm trying to memorise my script right now.

But I'm blogging :(

I don't care.

I WILL memorise it by tomorrow.

And I'm auditioning for three roles!

Ahhhh.

Anyway, went to school today for geog lessons.

Then went to WS.

Went to macs and the library.

Came home,

I took a long walk.

A 3 hour walk.

I had to clear my head, sort my thoughts.

You know.

But I already said that I wasn't going to blog about something ever again,

So I'm not gonna tell you exactly what it is.

Oh, well.

Drowning in self-pity, licking my wounds.

It's the best you'll get.

Bye.

Love♥
Zeal.



The skies, they scream her terror. The moon, they reflect her pain. The sun, it does nothing to warm her. The dark, it is her only solace.