Dear you,

Yeah, you.

I've wasted a lot, a lot, a lot of time on you.

And well,

Even though I still think that you have the most gorgeous eyes,

A bright bright smile,

Delicious smell,

Even though I still think that you speak to me differently,

Even though I love it when you dance, play the guitar, when you look at me, when you said you liked my name, when you call me, when you touch me, when you smile at me, when you tell me that it's gonna be okay,

Even though I still get goose bumps when I look at you,

Even though I can think of 100 reasons on the spot of why I love you..,

Don't believe me?

Let me show you.

1. I love the way you smile.
2. I love your laugh.
3. I love the way you glance at me, especially from sideways.
4. I love the way you dress.
5. I love the way you walk.
6. I love that you only have a dimple on your right cheek.
7. I love the way you speak.
8. I love the way you dance.
9. I love that you’re so talented.
10. I love that you are so cute.
11. I love that you listen to music.
12. I love how you’re so good at so many things you do.
13. I love how you use your phone in front of me.
14. I love how you tease me.
15. I love how you like to make fun of people.
16. I love how you indirectly say you like me (even though it's not the kind of "like" I'm wishing for).
17. I love how you’re so different from most people.
18. I love how you have so much money but you’re not snobbish.
19. I love how you play basketball.
20. I love how I sometimes get confused around you.
21. I love how you don’t like crowds.
22. I love how you play hard to get… Even though you are actually hard to get.
23. I love how you smile to yourself sometimes when you think of something amusing.
24. I love how you are when you have a rhythm stuck in your head.
25. I love how you snap your fingers to a rhythm.
26. I love how you clap your hands.
27. I love how you stood right at the back hoping that no one would notice. I did, by the way.
28. I love how you sometimes zone out and accidentally start staring at me without realizing it.
29. I love how I look at you and notice that you were already staring at me.
30. I love your hair.
31. I love your beautiful brown eyes and how they appear a little bit golden in the sun.
32. I love the way you run your fingers through your hair.
33. I love the days your hair doesn’t cooperate with you and you keep trying to keep it in place but then you give up after a while. Hahahahaha. :)
34. I love how you save me from dying of boredom.
35. I love that you know I love you… It makes things a bit easier to understand.
36. I love how I have to chase after you.
37. I love how you make me chase after you!
38. I love how you stammer.
39. I love the way you say my name.
40. I love that you said you liked my name.
41. I love how you blow people off but never do it to me.
42. I love how you helped me in something important.
43. I love how you trust me with things.
44. I love how you are always appearing out of nowhere when I wish you were there. Even though it’s kind of freaky, I appreciate it so much!
45. I love how you carry the same water bottle around.
46. I love how some of your items are so precious.
47. I love how you always use the same two pieces of jewellery.
48. I love how you know so many people think you’re good-looking but you don’t care.
49. I love how you smile at me and tell me when I blush.
50. I love how you flip your hair, look up at me and say “Hey”. Ah, shittt. ♥♥♥
51. I love how you and I share an inside joke about someone ;)
52. I love how you got angry but after that when you made me chase after you again, you asked me “Was I that scary? Don’t be scared. It’s okay, really.”
53. I love how you’re sensitive.
54. I love how you put some people before yourself.
55. I love that you lied to protect me.
56. I love how you don’t lose your temper with me.
57. I love how you drive.
58. I love how your cars are so different.
59. I love how you hold yourself.
60. I love that you’re always eating the same thing.
61. I love how I know where you go to shop.
62. I love how you go to the places I go.
63. I love how I know where your favourite place to be is.
64. I love how you do what you want and don’t give a shit.
65. I love how you’re so committed to the things you do.
66. I love how you’re the reason I can’t fall asleep at night – My mind is always too busy thinking of you.
67. I love how you make me prove myself.
68. I love how you find the most random things amusing.
69. I love the way you look when you’re shocked.
70. I love your half-smiles.
71. I love your lop-sided smiles!♥
72. I love that we are of the same descent.
73. I love how you know when I want to wave at you but I hesitate, then you say "You can wave, you know."
74. I love how you make me feel so alive.
75. I love how you came back when I needed you most.
76. I love how you don’t mind it when I ask you things I’m not supposed to ask you.
77. I love how it feels so right being with you.
78. I love how some of our encounters can and will never leave my mind.
79. I love how you bought ice cream the other day.
80. I love how you taught me things.
81. I love that can play the guitar.
82. I love that you can break dance.
83. I love that you are sometimes so oblivious,
84. Or you might just be a very good actor, which I love too.
85. I love how you understand.
86. I love how you’re so fashionable.
87. I love how my first impression of you was, What if he was my soul mate?
88. I love how you’re always on my mind.
89. I love how when I make a wish, you’re the first thing that pops into my mind.
90. I love how you’re unique and everyone wants to be around you but you prefer to be alone.
91. I love how I’m never going to give up on you.
92. I love how you’re shadowing my heart; you’re always there. And it’s dark.
93. I love how so many songs I listen to relate to you.
94. I love how you’re like a melody in my head and a lullaby to my heart.
95. I love how you grin to yourself when I ignore you! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
96. I love how you unexpectedly show up and make my day.
97. I love how word of you spreads so fast.
98. I love how you feel so different from everyone else. Or maybe that’s just me.
99. I love how you expect me do something but I do something else and you frown but then smile like you just heard a joke or something. Even though this confuses me sometimes.
100. I love how I know what you’re seeing.

And the list goes on and on and on.

Hah. I think I'm crazy.

Anyway, so, even though I love everything about you,

I am going to get over you one day.

I don't care. I have to.

Because if I don't, then well, I'm in deep shit.

I'll spend the rest of my life alone coz you'll never love me back.

Yeah. I'm pretty sure I will get over you, though.

Because this isn't love. It can't be.

Love♥
Zeal.





Tell me why. Why is it so hard if it's not real?