You keep giving me false hope.

Like you keep building me up and making my walls go down.

But then you do something... Or rather, not do something,

That tears me down and leaves my walls demolished because I want you to know me,

But I hate the way you make me feel when this happens.

So, yeah.

I'm basically confused and I don't know what to do.

To leave my walls down? Or build them up higher than ever?

People say to take a chance, they say that it's now or never.

But how the hell am I supposed to "take a chance", you tell me?

Now d'you know why I don't know what to do?

Coz everything I feel like doing, and everything people say to do,

Like, "Take a chance." "Follow your heart." "Tell someone when you love them coz hearts are broken by words unspoken."

All those things, they contradict what I can/can't do.

I'm not even allowed to tell you I like you,

Let alone what? Make a move?

How the hell?!

This is annoying, do you know?

It's really annoying and frustrating.

Because people say to follow your heart but I'm not even fucking allowed to.

You know what?

Whatever. I give up okay?

I AM going to stop liking you.

I AM I AM I AM.

Fuck this shit, and fuck my heart :)

Love♥
Zeal.



I hate the world sometimes. I hate the order of things.