Today, I've realised something important.

A few things, actually.

Firstly, I realised that all I want is to see you happy because I just love your smile.

I swear. Nothing, and I mean nothing, makes me happier than seeing you smile and be happy.

That time when you were pissed off, I was so, so scared and I don't know why.

But not the one that was a few months ago. The recent one.

You were sitting alone and you looked pissed off.

I felt scared and worried and I wanted to kill whoever made you that way.

So I can't bear to see you unhappy.

I want you to always be smiling.

Even if I'm not the cause of your happiness.

And if you hate the sight of me,

I'll just avoid you forever, and this time, it would be real and sincere.

Because right now, avoiding you isn't for your benefit, it's for mine.

And I keep breaking my avoidance streak because it makes me happy seeing you.

But if it makes you pissed off seeing me, then I definitely will avoid you as much as I can.

The second thing I realised, is that I don't really want you to love me anymore.

I mean, if it makes you happy, then I definitely would not mind you loving me.

But if you were forced into it, if that were possible, then I'd rather us to never work out.

Never start anything at all.

Love♥
Zeal.



Is this me giving up?