You said forever, and you even made a pinky promise.

Even though I broke one of the pinky promises I made to you,

It didn't change anything.

It won't change anything.

Right?

Is that why you seem to hate me now?

Because I told one person?

And that one person being someone I trust with my life?

And what about you?

You broke a pinky promise too.

Or did you break it because I broke mine first?

I think I'm going crazy.

Too big of a dreamer, literally.

That's what she is.

She believes too easily and she lets fate take control of her.

And that's why she's like this now.

Crazy.

I'm so fucking afraid that this is just going to get worse.

I can't wait till it's my turn to leave you,

But I'm also absolutely dreading that day.

What if I'm not strong enough to let go?

You have to tell me,

If this is real.

Or if I'm really going crazy.

Because it feels and seems so real, when you look and smile at me.

And also because of that insane rush of jealousy I get when you smile and talk to someone else.

Sometimes, I wish you never came into my actual life.

But then I wouldn't have been able to feel and experience such extreme happiness, it's like being on a high.

Just tell me what to do.

Or maybe, maybe it's two whole different worlds.

Maybe dreams and reality really can never be together, even though you may be entirely convinced that it could.

Maybe the person I dream about is not you on the inside,

Maybe there is no facade,

Maybe this really isn't love,

Maybe I imagined everything,

Maybe I don't really love you.

Tell me what the fuck is going on,

Coz you always leave me confused and you always make me think too much.

Love♥
Zeal.



You even said the F word. You said forever.